I ran/walked today. I only made it 17 minutes, but I guess that's better than nothing. I bought some new running shoes, but still don't know if they are great for me. I went on a website and went through their shoe wizard to determine what styles would be best for me. I bought a pair that was listed and tada, they were at my doorstep in a few days.
My feet and legs really hurt today, though. I'm not sure if it was the shoes, the uneven pavement, or the fact that I'm just REALLY out of shape...like grossly, obesely out of shape. It stinks. Anyway, I still have my sites on this 5K in May. I have to keep telling myself that I can do it, and I keep trying to imagine what it will feel like when I actually stick to something and accomplish a goal. I can't wait to run across that finish line!
This new journey isn't just about bringing my skinny back. It's also about helping me find self-worth. Surely God intended me to be more than I am. I know He intended me to take better care of my body. This vessel that he made in which I am to spend my earthly days belongs to him. He's just loaning it to my soul for a while.
The condition of my body may reflect the condition of my soul. I do not feed my soul from His word as much as I should. I do not feed it healthy snacks of scripture that are from His breath. Though my soul is saved by Jesus' blood, I'm not caring for it as I should. Therefore, my attitude is not nice. I have become bitter and resentful. I feel so alone, and I have so many regrets.
So is the same with my body. I don't feed it healthy, whole foods. I don't exercise on a regular basis to make it stronger. Therefore, it has become unhealthy and not pleasant to look at. I see all the ugliness of bitterness, resentment, and regret everytime I look in the mirror. It breaks my heart.
Precious Father, I want to rid my soul and my body of this ugliness. Help me love myself, not in a arrogant, conceded way, but as a humble, confident child of THE KING! Help me lay aside the bitterness, regrets, disappointments, shame, and guilt that keeps me in this venomous cycle. Thank you, God, for your precious gift. In Jesus' name. Amen.
Bringing it,
Kellie
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Long time, no blog, and no progress.
Ok. So, I'm still fat. I did have a stomach virus two days after Christmas that knocked a little off, but I'm sure that's back now. I'm disappointed in myself to see that I've not blogged or made progress on this new journey since October, 2010. I have made a decision, though. I am going to train to run/walk/limp a 5K in May of this year. It's only 4 months away. YIKES!
I'm going to follow the Couch to 5K http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml training plan. It's really straightforward, and makes my goal "seem" attainable.
I've only been out to exercise ONCE. Yep, that's awful. It's been too cold and busy for me, and my treadmill is not working to allow me to walk inside. It is beginning to get warmer here though. I've got to get moving!
Time to bring my skinny back,
Kellie
I'm going to follow the Couch to 5K http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml training plan. It's really straightforward, and makes my goal "seem" attainable.
I've only been out to exercise ONCE. Yep, that's awful. It's been too cold and busy for me, and my treadmill is not working to allow me to walk inside. It is beginning to get warmer here though. I've got to get moving!
Time to bring my skinny back,
Kellie
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Fun Fall Day with Sweet Friends!
I love fall! I love Halloween! I love my sweet friends, the Latta's (even though they cheer for "that other team"!) We're getting ready to enjoy a fun day with them here in Foley, just 5 minutes from the beautiful Gulf Coast! It makes my heart so happy to be here! Looking forward to a great day and I'll post pics later. Oh, and one last thing...WAR EAGLE!!!
Friday, October 1, 2010
The journey is over...
to being fat, that is. I've been on that journey for more than 15 years and guess what...I succeeded. I'm there. I made it to fat. I've eaten what I wanted, when I wanted, and haven't made myself stick to any healthy eating or exercising plan. I'm 5'1", tall and the last time I checked, I weighed almost 180 lbs. which is more than my hubby weighs.
Who wants to weigh more than her husband? For the past 15 years, my hubby has watched the love of his life change from being a beautiful, vibrant gal, to an overweight, not-so-vibrant woman. I want him to be able to pick me up. I want to wear his t-shirts. I want to have a picture made with him and not hate the way I look. I want to go out in public with him and not be embarrassed, knowing that people think we "don't look like we go together". Hubby loves me no matter what, and to him, I'm still beautiful.
The truth is, I'm not happy with myself at all. Getting dressed each day is miserable because I hate my clothes. I'm miserable because I love to shop, but I don't really buy stuff for myself anymore, because I know that no matter what Stacey and Clinton say, NOTHING really looks good on me. I'm miserable because I FEEL HORRIBLE most of the time. I'm always tired, and my back and feet ache continually. On top of that, I realized just last week that my leg muscles have atrophied from lack of exercise.
Another truth is that I am not treating my body as a temple for the Holy Spirit. Jesus Christ is my Savior. He lives in me. He died for my ugly sin, so I might inherit His kingdom some day. The bible is clear:
1 Corinthians 6:19–20
19 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.
I have a lot of work on a long road ahead. It's scary, but I know it's necessary, and I'm hopeful that I can find that vibrant, energetic gal again. Although, this time around, she has some wrinkles and a tiny bit of wisdom that she didn't have before.
I'm ready to bring my skinny back.
Kellie
Who wants to weigh more than her husband? For the past 15 years, my hubby has watched the love of his life change from being a beautiful, vibrant gal, to an overweight, not-so-vibrant woman. I want him to be able to pick me up. I want to wear his t-shirts. I want to have a picture made with him and not hate the way I look. I want to go out in public with him and not be embarrassed, knowing that people think we "don't look like we go together". Hubby loves me no matter what, and to him, I'm still beautiful.
The truth is, I'm not happy with myself at all. Getting dressed each day is miserable because I hate my clothes. I'm miserable because I love to shop, but I don't really buy stuff for myself anymore, because I know that no matter what Stacey and Clinton say, NOTHING really looks good on me. I'm miserable because I FEEL HORRIBLE most of the time. I'm always tired, and my back and feet ache continually. On top of that, I realized just last week that my leg muscles have atrophied from lack of exercise.
Another truth is that I am not treating my body as a temple for the Holy Spirit. Jesus Christ is my Savior. He lives in me. He died for my ugly sin, so I might inherit His kingdom some day. The bible is clear:
1 Corinthians 6:19–20
19 Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.
I have a lot of work on a long road ahead. It's scary, but I know it's necessary, and I'm hopeful that I can find that vibrant, energetic gal again. Although, this time around, she has some wrinkles and a tiny bit of wisdom that she didn't have before.
I'm ready to bring my skinny back.
Kellie
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